what the hell am I supposed to say? to any of you? including You.
I'm pissed.it hurts.I don't get it.I am avoiding the truth.I only think about it when I get quiet enough to hear my heart, so I try to stay noisy.I laugh to myself when I think of the fact I have had a class on grief counseling. yeah. that helps. I have not turned off augustana in a good long while.but I have found comfort in friends. but there is a friend who is missing.a friend who I should be snuggling with and playing with her hair, or her mine.so what now?

ohhh keren.

oh god.